i thought i really knew what it meant to be riding an emotional roller-coaster. but i didn't...until now. weston is still doing better than we thought, but i just got a call that they had to re-intubate him. that means that he is no longer breathing on his own and that they are doing another echo-cardiogram right now to determine if surgery to insert a shunt to replace the pulmonary valve is something they should do right now instead of in 3 or 4 months.
i wish that i could emotionally handle being able to give change by change updates, but between the hormones and the reality of the situation, i'm spent. jon's on a plane to san fran for his last wedding in the next 3 weeks, so my prayer is that he'll make it back in time for any procedures that weston might need.
i'm at a loss of how to express the full extent of our gratitude for everyone's support and prayers. please know that it's during the more difficult times that i draw upon the strength those prayers to maintain the peace that we've been blessed with these past few months.
on a more positive note, beal came up to the hospital today and wheeled me over to see W before they knew they'd have to re-intubate. i got to hold him for over an hour. he's beautiful. i can already feel how strong and special he is. we love you dubya :)