Friday, June 05, 2009

now i understand...

i thought i really knew what it meant to be riding an emotional roller-coaster. but i didn't...until now. weston is still doing better than we thought, but i just got a call that they had to re-intubate him. that means that he is no longer breathing on his own and that they are doing another echo-cardiogram right now to determine if surgery to insert a shunt to replace the pulmonary valve is something they should do right now instead of in 3 or 4 months.

i wish that i could emotionally handle being able to give change by change updates, but between the hormones and the reality of the situation, i'm spent. jon's on a plane to san fran for his last wedding in the next 3 weeks, so my prayer is that he'll make it back in time for any procedures that weston might need.

i'm at a loss of how to express the full extent of our gratitude for everyone's support and prayers. please know that it's during the more difficult times that i draw upon the strength those prayers to maintain the peace that we've been blessed with these past few months.

on a more positive note, beal came up to the hospital today and wheeled me over to see W before they knew they'd have to re-intubate. i got to hold him for over an hour. he's beautiful. i can already feel how strong and special he is. we love you dubya :)


  1. We're thinking of you guys and keeping little Weston in our prayers. Thanks for the update.

  2. We hear you! I've been surprised by how often I've been thinking about you guys the past few days.

  3. Those emotional roller coasters with hormones going wild are not easy. I am so sorry. I am praying for you and your family and little one. Please call if you need anything. Even if it's just to talk. It helped me a ton to just talk. :) LOVE YOU!

  4. if I was there, I would give you one huge hug. Except, you just had surgery so maybe that's not the best of ideas.

    Like Andrea, I've thought about your fam a lot these last few days. You are one amazingly awesome momma.

  5. Thank you for posting, it is nice to know what is going on. We are thinking about you constantly. I have been in contact with Camille a bit just to check on things. We love you SO much Callie. What a beautiful baby boy. Thank you for your example of wonderful love and motherhood.