something about two of my favorite people finding each other and falling in love has changed me. i haven't felt this much clarity in a very long while...not since i decided to start making important foundational decisions conducive to Heavenly Father's will, but that's a whole other post :). ever since lulu's birthday last week things have been better than they've ever been: for myself, for jon and i,for our family...everything has just been better.
it's been 8 years since i feel i've had this much clarity...and by clarity i mean perspective, hope, motivation, patience, desire for improvement...
i ended up having to kill some time tonight driving around provo and i found myself driving down the street where jon and i met 11 years ago. then i drove up to campus and past the buildings where i spent so much time agonizing over school to finally be done. ever since graduation i've always said i'd never go back and i pitied all those fools having to trudge back to classes semester after semester. but tonight it all changed.
i have sincere desires to go back. it all came together remembering my time teaching english in uganda and uruguay, teaching ESL at the MTC, and i know what i want to do. the girl who'd sworn off higher education for eternity is going back! figuring out the timing of this all has yet to be worked out, but i'll be that 30 something mother of 5 in class that you were always a little wary of, but who deep down was more like you than either one knew.
so here's to new love and all the happiness and hope it brings! i love you guys!